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Baegopa ^^

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Acting && singing && just pretty much the theatre arts is… AMAZING!

Haha thinking of doing Roundabout theatre? sounds like tons of fun && good experience. Probably nxt year though :)

… and that is why i should take my perscriptions

……….so i have anemia?………. which can lead to cancer? 

….. well this is a fml moment…. okay….. must take perscriptions on daily basis

or else…. results=fatal? hahh…. no wonder i always feel tired…..

must take perscritions….. 

… must get a doctors appointment

oh shiatttttttttt…. i didnt think it’d beh that bad ://

What’s a friend?

Why is finding a good friend so hard? Why is acting yourself so hard? Why is controlling yourself so hard? Why? Why? Why? How come i thought that I could become friends with them? I thought we would work out, that we would last for more than 3 months. Summer starts and I devoted myself to that friendship, just to find it dead right after she left. She. I guess that was the only reason I was included in the first place. She was the center of it all, and I was just the pace maker. The one to start it off, and the one to be left alone in the dark. We had so many plans, so many. Camping, shopping, sleepovers, trips… none of them happened. Just after that one summer, everything just went BOOM! And our ties were severed and snapped to pieces. I even came to your goddamn event, to cheer you guys on, and hang. But only to find myself standing in a corner by myself, not noticed by anyone there. There weren’t even a lot of people there. And yet, how was I missed? Why was I the only one left out? The least that anyone could’ve done was to say hi. Just one simple word. Only one out of a billion of you said that. Yes. One. I feel so low, so alone, invisible, like a shadow I follow you, yet you just step on me and leave me in the dark. I thought that everything would work out, I would be able to hang out with you guys frequently get updated and stuff. Get to know you guys more, but no. But, then… I guess it’s partially my fault. My fault for getting used, my fault for wanting to fit in where I don’t. I can’t wait till this year is over. I’m a mess. Over summer break I will gather myself and put myself together, and by the time school starts again, I’ll be a new person. I won’t allow myself to become another mess. && this time, I will focus more on the people who surround me, not the people who I want to be surrounded by. Next year. I just need 3 months, 3 months to put myself back together again. 3 months to make myself better, and more controlled. Just 2 more months till I get my break. Till I can put myself back together. 2 months.

Oh hey… It happened…

My dad is……. furious?

Yah… he is…

and now what? My mom keeps doing as she likes

and i lost a whole day of being able to do my hw.

so this is how the day ends.

Me with nothing done

Dad with a fury

Mom with stuborness

Sisters…. well, they’re just there

My rant ends here…. 

… And now everyone’s mad PART 2

She’s still at …. fucking retarded

my dad already sad no and she’s still fucking at it.

Now my room looks fucking retarded and suffocating to be in….

I seriously hate this do fucking much

This is the worst Spring Break of my fucking life.

I feel like fucking dying in a fucking hole.

Then at least what I say wont fucking matter anymore.

Why don;t we throw out the fucking tv that I dont even use?

And that fucking mini closet full of her stuff….. seriously

What the fuck is the point of having a fucking room when you cant put your own fucking stuff in it and you cant fucking have your own fucking privacy.

I’m fucking supposed to be doing my homework but instead I can’t cuz my room

is a FUCKING MESS. Actually…. now, I don;t even have space to do my fucking hw

Cuz my mom put my closet in the middle of my room and now I can’t fucking do anything.

And now she’s taking the goddamn shelf appart…

Where the fuck am I going to put my stuff? If you’re taking my fucking shelf apart?

Why don;t you just throw my bed out while you’re at it.

I wish I can say all of this out loud.

But then that apparently, in my mom’s words would lead me to a beating where afterwards i wont be able to stand anymore…

so pretty much she;s saying shes gunna beat me till I;m handicapped..

Fuck asian life. What’s so good about it? your parents treat you like trash

and they don;t care what you like to do

They just want youto do something that makes big money

As if money matters …. 

I can;t wait till my dad comes  upstairs….

Then. My mom will be stopped and then…..

GREAT! JUST GREAT! NOW SHES FUCKING TAKING OUT ALL MY BOOKS AND STUFF OUT OF THE ONE AND ONLY PLACE THAT I HAVE IN THIS FUCKING ROOOM

WHYT CANT SHE JUST LEAVE THAT PLACE FUCKING ALONE? WTF

DOES SHE HAVE SOMETHING AGAINST ME OR SOMETHING?

SHE KEEPS ON COMPLAINING HOW MY DAD IS LIKE SPOILING ME, BUT ITS MORE LIKE SHES GETTING SPOILED.

My dad buys her like freaking sewing machines like 500 dollars and freaking expensive jewelry that she doesnt wear that are like 300 dollars.. and now she’s moving all my stuff?

I can;t wait till summer…

Gonna redecorate my room, and then put everything back to its original place.

Does she even think about what she’s doing? She never even asked me about this

Even though I already said NO and WHY? a bunch of fucking times.

All i can do now…. is hate her with all my guts and ignore what she says to me

and probably just nvr say anything to her again…

and then there’s a freaking asian culture

where if you dont do whatever your parents say, you are looked upon as a rebelous child that are unloyal and faithful… unloyal my ass

So its rebellious to have your own thoughts?

Thats great…. 

And then whenever i talk to my parents i have to say “Gia” which means yes in every single fucking sentence

and if i dont io get scolded

I mean like seriously? whats the point of saying “Gia” every single sentence

What’s the point of saying it when you’re not even asked a yes or no quetion?

So uhmmm… where am i sposed to put all the things that my mom threw out?

Yahhh. I’d like to know that mom.

And now everyone’s mad…

So… went to Target and bought some make-up which apparently I forgot to put away and my mom found it and said RETURN THEM! too bad mom, i knew you were going to say that… so i threw away the receipt MWAHAHAHAHAa and yah

And then when we goot home, my mom ordered me …. not to clean my room, but she told me to take out my sister’s desk and my drawers in my little closet thing and i was like WTF? why? and she was like “so i can hang my clothes” I’m like seriously…. YOU HAVE YOUR OWN ROOM! THIS IS MY ROOM! when i wanted to throw away my closet so i can hang my clothes she was like NO and now she wants to throw my and my sister’s stuff out so she can put her stff in ….

and my dad went down the hall and there was my little sister’s desk and he was like “WTF ARE YOU DOING ????” and I’m just sitting on my bed hypervenalating…

WAIT! WTF ARE YOU DOING? he just said no and yet you’re still proceeding to take my drawers appart??? what are you doing? WTF? this seriously pisses me off right now. i am about to have a mental breakdown. not even kidding…. leave my drawers alone!

okay so before all this happened i told my mom

WTF ARE YOU DOING THIS FOR STOP IT!

and then she started to fucvking yell at me and like threatened to beat me up

and i was thinking COME AT ME BRO

i mean like seroously, i’d rather she beat me up than ruin my room and put her stuff in my room and like tearing it apart

and now she’;s looking through my clothes. great just great

GET THE FUCK OUT NOW

this pisses me off so much…. i dont know why but i am emotionally sensitive…

and im crying…. its like helllloooo STOP NOW and like she doesnt even care what i think, it;s like that allllll the time. I mean like seriously GTFO NOW

im cussing a lot O_O bad thing but what can i do? All i can do now is rant on TUMBLRR cuz i deactivated my facebook and well TUMBLRR = my rant place

This seriously pisses me off so muchhhhh 

I cant wait to leave on wednesday

Can someone please get her out of my room?

Please?

And now she threatens to throw my laptop from the second floor down to the ground. I really dont care now, as long as she gets out of my fucking room. Because if she does throw it. My dad shall get angry at her and then the fight begins and ill get a new laptop and ill be happy while my mom thinks that im a freaking bitchy sluty child

&& plus the only reason i wear make-up is to hide my dark circles and like yah just brighten myself up…. then she comepares me to other ppl

its like STFU im not them… and then she’s like so and so doesnt wear make-up… well guess what? THEY FUCKING DO! YUR JUST TO BLIND TO FREAKING SEE IT! does she really think that everyone looks that perfect? and has thick eyelashes?

oh…wow and now my mom attempts to pull my drawers out… good luck with that…. the fucking top part will fucking collapse stupid. My mom seriously needs to start listening to how others say and feel…. why cant she take her own closet out? huh? seriously…. GTFO NOWWWWWWWWWWWW

TT_TT why is she so unreasonable….

Series!

Whoooo Kaichou wa Maid-sama 2nd season coming out in August!!!

and then Merlin Season 5 coming out this month!!! WHOOOO!!!!

-bye

I like the lyrics ^^

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My Bad Day…

So uhm I thought today was gonna be AWESOME!
Since you know… pi day, taquirilla, auditions, test, free time, and 3 day 2 nite trip

But…… i had….. A HORRIBLE DAY! TT_TT

So let’s start with this morning.

I was thinking oh heyyy! No RAIN! GOOD DAY! NO SKEWL TOMORROW!

I wore makeup fer da fun of it and my mom wasnt awake yet so i got away with it <3 

And then PE was fun

And spanish was amazing-ish no taquerilla, but like half an hour of free time

Then came Algebra <3 yummy PIEEE

and then……. drama….. lotsa free time

then….. BIO

the test was okay ://

Then ENGLISH……. WHO DA FUDGE WOULD GIB THEIR STUDENTS A TEST ON A VIDEO THAT MADE BARELY SENSE AND LIKE NVR TOLD THEM B4 HAD WHO DA FUDGE WOULD REMEMBER WHAT A SIGN IN THE BACKGROUND SAID? HUH?

done with that rant….

then……. auditions….

THERE WERE SO MANY …… showy ppl?

I mean like seriously, there was only one ppl out of all of them that i actually enjoyed watching and she wore sweats and a tshirt and breakdanced and bboyed

right there is my idol

okay so then i freak out and i suckkkkkkkked :)

then afterskewl…… my dad thought i snuck off somewhere o.O

and like got pissed off fer some reason

and then i look for my ipod and it was on my table

and i searched my backpack and slitted myself with a knife o-o

and cramps

the end

The Return Of Iljimae…

So basically it’s a k-drama. It’s kinda like Robin Hood. But… BETTER times a trillion billion gazillion times. It’s so sad and depressing. Once it gets happy and then the story just throws you off and there’s like something horrible that happens. The guy finds da old monk who took care of him as a baby and now he gets locked up by the monk. He found a happy life with his lover which he fell in lub with over a day. and her family got executed. Pretty much super depressing overall but realllly funny and entertaining. It’s like a bipolar story. You’re like laughing at one point and getting teary the next. It’s like reading a book, except when you’re laughing and getting teary about what happens, people just assume that you’re weird. The best of the best part is… there’s lots of ACTION! whooo and people flying and sword fighting which is AMMMMMMAZING! && then there’s this one weird Qing spy from china who like walks sideways o-o Sadly I am banned to watch more of it until tomorrow </3 did i mention that the main role is played by Jung Il Woo? <3

         

     

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Whenever I get on Tumblr there’s like A BUNCH of stuff after like not being on after a week or something…. so this is what it feels like to be spammed xD